Tugs on my Strings

The chemistry exam wasn't as bad as I thought it would be... only took me half an hour, whereas we were given an hour and a half to complete it. Guess I was more prepared than I thought, but this is only chemistry. My calculus exam is two weeks from today, so I better prepare for that. At least I didn't have to memorize the periodic table.

I stopped at a bookstore downtown several times today to relax and study in their coffee cafe. Near the cafe entrance are some shelves labeled "New Age", where they put books on stuff like divination, occultness and even paganism (Which I bet many book organizers still label those books under such because some pagan religions are reconstructionist religions, as in the case of Wicca, or the misconception that all pagan beliefs and practice stem from a belief of "magic", whereas I've seen many pagan religions that study or believe in "magick", which is supposed to be different I think..)

On those shelves I saw several tarot decks. Tarot, as far as I know it, is the process of using special cards to help fortell the future or things to come. The artistry on those cards and their apparent simplicity in function caught onto something in me. It's something that I would try one, perhaps, but the process of divination makes me somewhat sour about it. It's not a religious matter, but the frame of thinking that your future has been predetermined, the concept of fate. This is how your life's going to be, no ifs, ands or buts about it. I want to think there's somethings within my sphere of control that can influence my life instead of following a static script. It might be selfish in me wanting to believe in having some control, but I guess I want to believe in that freedom, considering the current nature of political freedoms...